Thor Blerster
"There Is a Hell, Believe Me, and I’ve Seen It. There Is a Heaven, Let’s Keep It as a Secret."
Loneliness is not a sin. Loneliness is an unpleasant feeling. In which a person feels a strong sense of emptiness and solitude resulting from inadequate levels of social relationships. However, it is a subjective experience. Loneliness has also been described as social pain - a psychological mechanism meant to alert an individual of isolation and motivate him to seek social connections. To speak/talk with someone. To share a person’s feeling with someone. And mostly, to love someone. But some people did not have the luck to talk with people or have a strong relationship with them. And it was actually not a sin...
People can experience loneliness for many reasons and many life events are associated with it, like the lack of friendship relations during childhood and adolescence, or the physical absence of meaningful people around a person are a few causes for loneliness. At the same time, loneliness may be a symptom of another social or psychological problem, such as chronic depression. But Udarsha didn't have either of them, he always needed solitude. He wanted to be alone always. Udarsha had a good thought what kept him going forward so far. And it was as he always says "Only the weak would seek the aid of other people/friends..."
It was dark inside the room, except for the table lamp which was on the table. It was glowing brightly, making the room more visible. Only the room. The other parts of the house were in total darkness. Which was like a haunted apartment? As for Udarsha he was sitting down on the bed, he needed solitude. And the room which was covered with walls just gave him that. Smiling towards himself, he taught of the world; that was surrounding him. How the world would end and be reborn again. Udarsha, who had lived in the human world for more than 1000 years, had seen its true face. The streets are extended gutters and the gutters are full of blood and when the drains finally scab over, all the vermin will drown. That was the forming world today. "The accumulated filth of all their sex and murder will foam up about their waists and all the whores and politicians will look up and shout "Save us!"... And I’ll whisper "no..." Udarsha thought grinning.
Udarsha had drawn his Zanpakutō out; the entire metallic length of it and now with the hilt in one hand and a soft square of cloth in the other he was polishing it. As every other Shinigami whom actually cared for their Zanpakutō more than their own life's, his Zanpakutō was not so important to him, but Udarsha cared for it nonetheless however right now he took better care of it than he had ever bothered to was he bored or just going insane? Normally he'd prefer the way of slashing helpless people with it, which gives him quite a joy and a bizarre happiness. Mostly, for that reason people called him sadistic. Yet, they were correct of it. And frankly he preferred the way the blade of his Zanpakutō glinted under the small light of the table lamp; it looked more like hell? Hell is real, believe me...
One could wonder, "Why are Zanpakutō very valuable too soul reapers?" The question maybe simple, but the inner answer was a complex one to tell. A Zanpakutō cannot be replaced, though it will slowly regenerate if it is broken. Either Udarsha's Zanpakutō was never broken down by anyone. Truly, a worthy could do that. Every Zanpakutō has its own name; which Udarsha's Zanpakutō had the name of a fallen demon. A Zanpakutō size reflects the amount of the swordsman's spiritual power. This was quite a weird concept. Udarsha's Zanpakutō was a normal size sword in both stages; Bankai and Shikai. It never grew longer or bigger, only its power grew to be immense. Very...very... immense...
Feeling bored of what he was doing; Udarsha got up and slowly kept his valuable Zanpakutō, on the bed. Walking towards the window he opened it. He could feel small wind currents flowing everywhere. Udarsha took a deep breath and exhaled. "This was the perfect life!" he thought sensing the spiritual pressure of a being; coming towards him. Udarsha grinned excitedly. He did not have any fun for decades. And this was the chance to have some fun. As he slowly leeked out some of his sprite force, so the person could sense him as well. Come, come, it all starts and ends here...
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